omg it is 11:51 pm as we speak, I am still 28.
i
omg 11:52
don’t want to rely on external substances to make me feel better
don’t want to absorb so much into much emotions anymore
want to increase my sense of joy, hopefulness and meaning in life
omg 11:53
want to be a better sister and daughter
not want to always want to die
want to continue to find purpose and give back in my work
11:54
i don’t know
i just want to be happy. i’m tired of
11:55
yearning for the next best thing.
is it wrong of me to want to be settled, feel safe.
my heart hearts suddenly.
lowkey what if i die
like a modern day sylvia plath
11:56
4 fucking minutes
should i explain the grief of me being 29 in 6 words lol
bro i can’t believe this shit
11:57
imma publish now
if i post again that means i made it
i won’t advertise this one because this one is a little manic.
tata for now and see you on the other side.
ahhhh.. am i stalling??
maybe
be here with me until…
11:58
okay
love you
bye
xoxo
-m
cognitive chaos 